Well, our little man is turning one week old tomorrow. That sounds so old and yet so young. haha Before he came I thought, “I can handle a newborn.” This is worth it because there’s a sliver of a chance we’d get to keep him and I’d be so happy I spent every minute I could with him. After night one (I had one and a half broken hours of sleep), I thought…. “What were we thinking?! This is going to kill me. I’m 12 weeks away from giving birth to another newborn, already don’t sleep well, and I can’t nap during the day because even if he is sleeping, I have two nutty girls to keep track of!!! Ahhhhhhhh!!”
The wonderful “baby whisperer,” Amy Combs gave me some much needed advice the following day when I called her desperately and the next few nights have gone SO much better!! Our current “schedule” is a feeding around 10:30 p.m. and then he eats roughly every 3 hours overnight. His worst is after the 2 a.m. (ish) feeding when he cries a little, but it’s honestly not too bad. I’m not going to say it’s easy being super pregnant and trying to take care of a newborn, because it’s not. It’s one of those situations that you really should never be in, but somehow I am. haha However, this baby is about 1,000 x easier than my kids were!! I am so thankful to have my suspicions confirmed. I always thought my kids were crazy difficult newborns (lots of screaming, crying, needing to be held constantly, very little sleep, etc., etc. lol) and now I know they were.
This kid pretty much sleeps constantly. I mean, he sleeps almost all day and sleeps great overnight for a baby this age! It’s ridiculous. I try to keep him awake in the evening time as much as possible and that seems to help him sleep better at night too. Even when he does “cry” it’s more of a whimper in comparison to my kids as babies. When they cried, I needed earplugs and it still didn’t help. When he cries, it’s like… are you actually upset or just whimpering? When he’s awake, he’s often just content laying on the floor. I normally pick him up because I can’t help cuddling him, not because he is actually upset!
He has the chunkiest little cheeks and is finally starting to open his eyes a little more. At first it was hilarious because he could haaaaaaaardly prop them open even when he was awake. ha! I feel like a professional bottle feeder compared to how I felt the first night he arrived. It really is pretty darn easy. A lot easier than nursing… haha!
The girls are absolutely in LOVE with this little guy! Evie always runs to his crib first thing in the morning to pat him and make sure he’s still hanging out with us. They both love patting him (although I try to redirect head patting to stomach or leg patting). Abby will sometimes sit by him and sing him songs and both girls like reading him books. He is certainly loved.
Abigail would hold him all day if I let her. She just can’t get enough!
Being so gentle while touching Baby.
She loves to just cuddle close and watch him sleeping. Sweetest. thing. ever. Look at that love in her eyes!
It really has been hitting home lately that there’s a solid chance he’s not going to stay with us forever and it’s making me ache a lot more than I thought it would. I kept trying to tell myself, he’s not ours and he is going to leave, but it’s way harder than you’d think to fully believe that. Ultimately, I know the Lord is in charge here and He can have him land in our family if that’s what should happen. I need to trust that more. Every time I catch myself getting miserable over the idea of saying goodbye, I try to cast it on Him and pray that His will be done in this situation. So often, children in the system are taken out, put back in, and taken out again months/years later. At that point, they have gone through SO MUCH more trauma, bad experiences, abuse, etc., etc., and they have to learn how to recover from and live with that. Right now, this little one is so innocent and hasn’t had to go through any of that. I want so much to spare him of that and give him a loving, nurturing life with a family who would do anything for him. This is tough.
On a lighter note, I had to go in and take my 28 week glucose test the other day and it was special. Thankfully, I had someone to watch the girls until Caleb could take over, but I needed to take little man with me. There are rules about who can babysit, etc., when they are in the system and we didn’t have anyone to help out. He’s an angel baby and just sleeps all the time anyway, so it really wasn’t a big deal. I will tell you though, nothing will get you stranger looks than being in an OB unit with a newborn and looking like you’re well… about 28 weeks prego with your 3rd baby (aka HUGE). I’m sure there will be times the looks will get to me, but this time I just was in the mood to have fun with it. I lounged in the waiting room, rocking my newborn in his car seat while I rubbed my protruding belly with that expectant glow in my eyes (at least, that’s what I was going for). Let me tell you, people were staring in confusion. I mean, babies a year apart are possible, heck… babies 9 months apart are possible, but having a baby days old and looking like you’re about to give birth a second time? Come on…. Even the receptionist did a double take when I walked in. She was checking her papers to make sure this wasn’t a follow up birth appointment. haha!!
When I went in to get my glucose test shots, the nurse was SO confused. “Wait now…. who are you? Name please?” “Now…. which tests are you here for?” “They’re testing you to see if the gestational diabetes is gone now, after birth?” At this point, I stopped her to explain the situation and she breathed a big sigh of relief. She even admitted, “Oh good! I was kind of surprised at how much you were still you know *gestures to my humongous stomach* and thought…. weeeeeell, sometimes that baby weight is HARD to lose!” HAHAHAHA!! The baby weight definitely gets harder to shed the more pregnancies you go through, but if I look like this days after giving birth… someone please take away my ice cream!!